Taking up little space
(This very short text is not particularly elaborate, but I wrote it in September 2024 and I still think about it often. I'm trying to break off from that mindset, and accept, you know, the whole concept of needs for myself after decades of denial; but it's difficult. It also reminds me, in different ways, of things I mention in I want to care and Little things.)
I've learned very early not to ask for more than what I am given
I have learned to settle for things as they are
I barely have an office where I work
I haven't asked for extra material
Or disability help
I have not bought things my apartment didn't already have
My transition is some long inertia
Asking for things in any close relationship makes me feel bad
I shouldn't
I shouldn't
What is a need if it requires imposing on other people?
I try to take up as little space as I can.